Birthday & Full Moon in Pisces

Turning 25 on the full moon, just a week before I leave for my trip, I wanted to really honor how special this day is.  I did a personal inventory- getting vulnerable with myself and asking what do I want to keep and what are lessons from this past year.  

I am

Chaos 

White light

Everything all at once 

Rainbows and rain clouds 

I am fascinated

Tickled and giggles 

By oh so many things

It’s not about cleansing or clearing or moving on but integrating my past selves with all the bad and good in order to be my most self.

I am a healer, I am Wiccan and always have been.

I forgive myself, I ask for forgiveness, I forgive others - and I return to this again and again.

I am too much for some, and that’s okay.

Life is full of cycles

People who I thought were here for a lifetime walked out and became a reason, a teacher, a lesson.

People come back, and when we do the work together the most magical moments can happen. 

It’s about respect. And picking up the phone. 

Life is about the joy of remembering when you forget.

No fear of death

But equally important

No fear of living 

Nothing is perfect, especially not nature and I would never want to be 

But I’m not broken 

And that is beauty.

Seriously, set down the perfectionist tendencies. Chill out. Breathe. 

“Letting it go” is unrealistic.

Community is key and women are incredible .

You are learning how to heal yourself.

A state of being that is embodied, visceral, grounded, open, and always in process, this is home.

Manifestation is a real thing, I have Flidais to prove it. I am a nomad and I long to be in the woods most of the time. 

I have strong opinions.

I struggle to be compassionate to those that are not to me.

I am a truth seeker.

I’m fucked up! And I still deserve love!

I am not in Paris but I am prepping to go on the next soul trip and yeah 25 does feel different... Stay present.

In the morning, my friends and I went to a river to do spiritual bathing and on the way home stopped at a rock shop, I got this gorgeous green calcite.  I cleaned and cleansed everything I could- my van top to bottom, living space, and scrubbed and soaked my own body.  Afterwards envisioning everything filled with light.  In the evening, my mom cooked Lebanese food and it felt so right to be eating the food of my heritage with my Sito (my grandma) there on my day of birth.  We had kousa (zucchini with ground beef and rice cooked in a tomato sauce), pumpkin kibbe, lamb fataya, and salad.  It was all so incredible and delicious, the fataya were my favorite.  We ate out on the back porch and I soaked in all the amazing, good, joyful, loving, respectful, and caring vibes from all the extraordinary people around me.  I am so grateful to all of you for making this such a special day and for preparing me so thoroughly for my life on the road!

From Chani Nicholas:

♌️ It is your harvest season.  Take note of who you work well with. Who knows how to take the risks that might bring up your fear but that still fill you with excitement. Take care of those who want your success as much as their own.  Take note of those who don’t. Can’t. Won’t.  Some of your best work will be done far and away from the office, desk, and screen.

♍️ August’s full moon washes up on the shores of your sweetest unions. It blesses the people that you have committed to. It validates the partnerships that you feel most at home within.  Commitment to productive playfulness.  What you need right now is time to make something substantial out of your creative energy. Space for all that might manifest through you. Honor the wisdom that you have spent your life cultivating. It’s so much easier to put it to use when you do.

THE WORLD

The card I pulled for my future, the ultimate representation of my trip.  Integration.  All the lessons learned and phases and spaces of my life.  Experiencing wholeness- the meaning of my name, Emma, so that is to say, Experiencing Emma.  Accomplishing.  Making Flidais and this trip a reality.  Becoming involved.  Healing, feeling engaged and active in my process and growth.  Feeling fulfilled.  Living in and for and savoring the present.  Taking pleasure in life.  Finding happiness in where I am in each moment.

The World is an indicator of a major and inexorable change, of tectonic breadth.